have you seen them? they see me too, but they don't care enough to notice. something is off. im good as them. but even at my best, even when im doing what they do, there is a difference.

i hate the difference.

it takes time. but they know it too. it's fun for them, they are in advantage.

it's fun for me too, cause im in disadvantage. the disadvantage is what feeds my rage. it's what makes me calm.

am i putting my best? no like honestly, is this my best? it better fucking not be.